how do you know i am about to move from one continent to the other?
this is how:
that space that used to house my bed
about an hour ago i sold my bed and that unused space you see above is where it used to be. the feeling of not having a bed is a very strange one. don’t worry, i do have something to sleep on (a couch and as alternative a blow-up mattress with a hole in it so i am unsure how long the air in it will actually last). but my comfy bed who has been with me for 8 years or so is gone…sniff. i feel a little shelterless. not homeless because i have a home. my bed has always been a center for me. it’s the one place where i am calm, can relax, and i love to sleep. now i have to deal with the sleeping arrangements i have…
by the way, another way to be able to tell i will be moving is the mess in the background of the picture. part of it is still the mess from when my apartment was dried due to the many water leaks in the past months. but part is also my effort to go through paperwork, clothes and just plain stuff to sort it into keep and toss piles. folks, that process is more difficult than i thought but i am getting there!
i will distract myself from the void that used to house my bed by doing some window shopping and enjoying a yummy ice cream.
in case you are curious, the mess at work is sort of sorted out. i am back to a 100% bonus (assuming i meet my numbers) and that is something i can live with. my work = my bonus. something i learned from this “situation” is to always, always, always cover your ass. be prepared to and do take meeting notes, write confirmation emails, just put whatever was discussed and agreed on in writing. as one of my co-workers out it “wer schreibt der bleibt” (german for who writes stays). for my meeting in question just me and my boss were present and he has a tendency to…well, let’s say forget what was discussed and what he agreed to. i was not prepared to take notes because it was supposed to be just a 5 minute meeting that then turned into a 45 minute
diamonologe. my boss did the talking, not me.
another thing i learned is to not have too close friendships at work. if there is potential for a friendship i will in the future try to develop that outside of work and keep it out of work as best as i can. i don’t want to be in the position again to have someone use the friendship card on me and then try to f*ck me over. sorry for these words but that is exactly what happened. it was said “friend” who came up with the idea to cut my bonus not the boss who she blamed when talking to me.
aaaaaaaanyways, i’m back to 100% and i only have 24 work days left. i can do this! i have to anyways
my flight countdown is 64 days. AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!
Posted by http://lifestartsnow.wordpress.com on May 26, 2012
life is a little hectic these days. tomorrow i am off to a wedding (my first real wedding, and i had to be 28 to experience this!) and work has been a roller coaster ride that is likely to continue through next week. once it’s all a sealed deal i can tell you all about it. i am super excited and just hope things will work in my favor.
maybe it’s a little bit mean of me but technically what is happening right now is that about 3 months ago a certain decision was made regarding responsibilities and i was not considered for something that i (and a number of others) though i was the best choice for. ok, life goes on. but a few days ago an opportunity came up and boy did i seize that opportunity! without much effort (because hey, this is what i know i am good at) i achieved some preliminary results and right now it’s very interesting to see my department react to it. the colleague i am outperforming isn’t too happy (and basically i have to rely on her approval to make this thing work for me…so i do have to hold back a
little lot). our boss already expressed her surprise and i could tell she was questioning her decision from 3 months back. one other colleague is on the side of the one i am outperforming but i could not care less right now. i managed to achieve something in mere 2 hours that my colleague needed 2 months for. that speaks for itself i think.
it’s not like i did not offer help or suggestions to my colleague when she did her stuff. it was just that those suggestions were not heard (or wanted…i guess she did hear them alright). so what am i to do? i’ll do my work, occasionally offer suggestions and get back to my work.
am i glad that i have at least 3 days to shine (even though things may not work out)? heck yes i am! i am smart, i am creative, and i am willing to get down and dirty if that helps to get the job done. i don’t want to worry about how that is perceived by certain colleagues.
Posted by http://lifestartsnow.wordpress.com on September 8, 2011
i continue to be the weakest link but today i was the weakest link who also walks with a limp. somehow the bruise on my knee knows more shades of purple than i knew existed.
bruise aka pain
can you say ouch?!?! i am especially amazed at this weird stripe right in the middle of it, that one has a different shading. how i managed to do that? i have no clue.
oh, there’s baby news at work! four months after the last birth we have the next preggo (no, it’s not me and no i did not see it coming). i though that colleague just gained some weight. ok, she gained it around her belly but i thought it’s a little too high for being a baby belly. apparently she just managed to dress well enough to look “food-fat” instead of baby fat.
it was her time to move today and when i walked in her new office she was sitting on a chair with her legs up on the table and looked all pale. she said her blood pressure was down and she did not feel good. we stuffed her with sugar water and i gave her some of the pretzel sticks i have at my desk to ease my cravings. and because we were alone in the room i asked her if she was feeling so down because of the move or if there is another reason and then she just spilled the news. yay! i am so so happy for her.
guess i have another baby blanket to make.
Posted by http://lifestartsnow.wordpress.com on August 23, 2011