i recently read about a fellow blogger’s birthday registry. she is turning 29 next week (and i did a month ago) so the fact that at 29 she has a bucket list AND is contemplating a registry makes me wonder if i should do the same and what my bucket list would include.
to me turning 30 (in…oh…11 short months) is going to be a milestone but then again i don’t feel like it is a biggie at all. the only thing that makes it big for me is that there’s a 3 in front and clearly that means i’m a grown up and officially adult. but the heck, i don’t feel grown up! i’m going back to school in the fall, if anything i am developing backwards!
i feel like being 30 years old somehow carries much more responsibility, maturity. at least that’s what i thought when i was younger. now i wonder how in the world i got to this point. i feel like 20, look like 18, and are as tall as i was when i was 14. bummer.
my bucket list would be full of traveling to various countries, small villages and unknown cities. it would be filled with love and family and friends and laughter. and it would include a warm beach here and there for good measures
Posted by http://lifestartsnow.wordpress.com on April 3, 2012
you know what is wonderful for me to see and hear: how my friends are happy for me getting the scholarship. i feel so blessed to have so many wonderful people in my life who are just happy for me – and who don’t make me feel like they are happy only because they are hoping for a cheap (read: free) vacation getaway.
it’s amazing to see their smiles, how their eyes light up, how some of them start tearing up because they know how much work i have put into this and how much hope was involved.
Posted by http://lifestartsnow.wordpress.com on March 24, 2012
i’m a bit (ok, a lot) sentimental these days. and surely it doesn’t help that i’m indulging in sappy music and sad thoughts. as for the music, of course set in a minor key, this is my current favorite: christina perri’s jar of hearts.
i have no broken heart. that’s about the only thing that i feel is set right at the moment. then again, circumstances could be easier. but we’re working on that.
i am sad about my grandma. a few days ago i realized how little time has passed since she finally was relieved of her pain, barely six weeks. maybe i’ve just been neglecting my feelings these past weeks and now they are coming back in full force, maybe it’s a normal step in the grieving process…i have no idea. what i know is that it’s about to throw me off track again.
this is how this post started. and then i got an email. an email that i have been waiting for for weeks (and wished to receive for months). i don’t want to go into the specifics right now. i still have to be patient for a little longer (about 4 weeks) and then i can fill you all in. let’s just say that the email started with congratulations
i’m elated, excited, shocked, relieved, startled, happy…all at the same time. and i am happy to be able to share this moment with the special people in my life (except for my mom who i cannot call at this time of night because she would get a heart attack).
isn’t it funny how our mood can swing from one end of the spectrum to the other within a split second? i realize i sound like i am bipolar or something but that is not my intention. rather i mean how some news you have been waiting for so long is finally there, and it’s the result you wanted, and all the worries are pushed away and all that is left is joy and thankfulness and a little disbelief. and impatience because of the said wait until mid-march.
oh boy, how am i supposed to go to bed tonight? before the email i was ready to fall asleep on the couch. now, an hour later, i am so full of adrenalin i could run a 10k (if only i would run, lol).
Posted by http://lifestartsnow.wordpress.com on February 10, 2012