it’s 11 pm and my flight leaves tomorrow afternoon. my bags are packed and i guess it’s time for one of my favorite songs (leaving on a jetplane).
there are so many emotions going through my mind right now. i have left my home many times, and my longest stint abroad was 13 months. now i’m looking at at least 3 years…that does make a difference somehow. since i started to work on my dream back in july, i had many meltdowns both because of studying (and being frustrated about my brain just not getting it) and because of my move and because of being overwhelmed in general.
since the idea of going back to grad school popped up in my head and now so much has happened and it feels great to know that i am now actually about to embark on this adventure! sometimes my own courage scares me. i have no idea if that makes sense at all but my adventurous travel-self scares the more down to earth-self in me. that travel-self has been suppressed long enough; it’s time i make use of my passport again!
i’m so nervous i can’t go to sleep even though i know i need every ounce of strength in me tomorrow to haul my luggage onto and off the train. i’m tiny and that is a major workout for me! i’d like to apologize to anyone who’ll sit next to me on the train and plane for sweating (and smelling) LIKE CRAZY!
i’ll be going back to grad school. i’m 29 and going for my second masters. other people my age get kids, i get some education lol
Posted by http://lifestartsnow.wordpress.com on July 29, 2012
it’s saturday, people. saturday as in tomorrow is sunday and the day after i am finally flying across the ocean! needless to say i am going nuts over here. i had a small meltdown yesterday when i was packing my second suitcase. whatever i did, my clothes refused to all fit. i packed, unpacked, repacked – nothing worked. and when i realized that the tears came.
i have done so much to downsize, heck, i went from a whole apartment to two boxes and (my plan anyways) two suitcases. well, seems like all of that was not enough just yet. and that realization made me cry.
the solution is mailing yet another box and while that is neither terribly bad nor the end of the world the fact that all my planning, all my efforts were not yielding the result i wanted is frustrating.
anyways, i guess what i’m trying to get at – and this is an advise i am giving especially to anyone who is planning something similar – is that it is a very emotional and strenuous endeavor to move to another continent. despite downsizing i have way more things than i thought i had and it takes much more time to get everything organized. not just the stuff you want to bring and ship but also all the administrative paperwork. whatever you think you’ll have in the end: double that. whatever amount of time you think you will need: double that! this will be a much more realistic view of what is awaiting you.
to think i have all that awaiting AGAIN me once i am off the plane isn’t terribly exciting. i just want a little house elf who will do this for me, who unpacks and hangs my clothes, who magically turns my wrinkled-up clothes into perfectly ironed ones. if there is such an elf please send him/her my way. thanks!
i’ll spend this weekend with family and some final packing and with freaking out. sounds like a plan, right?!
Posted by http://lifestartsnow.wordpress.com on July 28, 2012
i’m doing taxes. taxes, people!!! i am moving to another continent in 11 days and i am doing taxes. you’d think i had other stuff to do…like downsize, or pack, or finish the baby blanket i have been meaning to finish months ago, or be with friends and family, or sleep, or enjoy the summer….yeah, out of all these possible things i am doing taxes. life is a bitch!
well, technically, i have put the burden of my tax return on an accountant because i don’t have the time and energy to worry with that paper stuff now. i rather pay a little extra and have someone do my paperwork. she’ll also do next year’s return which will be an adventure in itself considering that we will be separated by an ocean…
but though i have someone do the return for me i still need to collect all the paperwork and bills and stuff. ugh. annoying!!! plus i need to prepare the 2012 return so that as many documents are already in place as is possible at this point in time.
did i mention i am leaving in 11 days??? 11!!! that’s less than 2 weeks! time to freak out!
Posted by http://lifestartsnow.wordpress.com on July 19, 2012